Hello folks it has been a LONG time since my last update. I was concentrating on my career and wasn't up for any jibbery entries.

Hold that thought for a while. I have actually lost all data pertaining to my experiences in the subsequent department, I guess too much work have been occupying my time and the only time I have to rest is well spent to counter the amount of work we had to do. Nope. Not complaining at all.

As for updates. A LOT of updates. I got married last year to a lovely guy in July. Gone on our honeymoon had spent like a lot of time together. So pleased how my life turned out to, Alhamdulillah.. And more good news, I am currently pregnant @ 34-35wks!So far so good, my baby is currently around 2kg. Gained around 10kg since pregnancy.

I recently finished my housemanship and currently I am waiting for myself to be posted somewhere. But I guess I just worry about delivery rather than my career for now.

In between the time I met new colleagues, new friends but still close with my old friends and colleagues. I watched all my medical officers becoming specialists, specialists becoming consultants..These are the people that have aspired my years in medical world.

I am still here. Still deciding what to do next in life. Hope I dont take too long to decide.

Miss this blog. Read the previous entries,reminded me so much of the past. My life is colorful. Im so glad of all the things that happened and that have not happened. The reasons behind them are vague but turned out one by one reveals to be very encouraging.

Anyways.
For now I really like to write more about medical issues.
I love stalking for women. I shall do that now. My maternity leaves starts soon. Wish me luck for my labor.

Please feel free to browse through my attempted website for women out there: Healthy Women AwarenessI have made it as simple as possible for people to understand. 

Thank you.

Take care.

-cynicalmd-

Hooking up from a new point of view.

My dad asked me again last few days.

"Whats new? I'm looking for new interesting stories to tell my friends, your fish hook guy story isnt that good anymore"

That reminded me that I so need to tell you guys about it.

It was like months ago when it was my first oncall in surgical department, I was called down to Emergency to attend one patient.

Seeing him, he was on his abdomen, his butt slightly raised - semi pushup position? I'm not sure what you call it, but wutever.

The main story is that I was ready to clerk this guy, then my MO came and he said "you know what, dont bother, I know the case already"

And I was like "okaayy.." ..since the guy didnt answer nuthin when I asked wot his name was. So wutever. And my MO went like "okay, open up his pants"

And the nurses were helpin him out, and we were like standing watching at the side.

Ok next bit might sound a bit disturbing but wut the hell, its our job. So we literally went snooping around his butt. Butt cheek separated and there...

We saw like a little metal piece stuck out from around his anus region. I was well gobsmacked.

That little shiny metal piece seems to be hooked around the asshole like nobody's business.

I looked at my MO and my MO looked at me. And I was all red, I cant seems to control it, in my head there I was rolling on the floor laughing, but in reality I had to suck everythin in and god knows I felt like my tears almost came out and my cheeks felt sore when I refused to smile/laugh.

OH MY GOD I was like shouting in my head..what kinda sick joke is this?

And his mother approached me. And she said "I tried hiding the fish hooks, but he seems to go and buy it again.."

"who did this??"

"he did it himself..but we tried everything already, he keeps buying fish hook and whenever nobody is around, he would 'hook' himself"

Again I was gobsmacked. I mean what the hell is wrong with his brain? I excused myself and let my MO talked to the mother and I walked straight to the computer to check his past history.

There..he was in and out of the emergency department like 2-3 times because of the fish hook stuck around his anus. Once he was transferred to operating theater just so that he can be put to sleep just so that they could remove the fish hook.

Apparently, he is known mentally challenged but the mother had no idea why it has to be fish hooks, the history went back to the time he was at special school in hostel. Something could have happened in the hostel. But nobody in the family knew what it was.

God strangest thing happens all the time when we least expect it.

God bless.

Ciao folks, have a good weekend.

Im oncall tommorow, so yeah..again..enjoy your weekend.Just enjoy your weekend..just enjoy your weekend..

ENJOY YOUR WEEKEND.

ENJOY YOUR WEEKEND.

ENJOY YOUR WEEKEND.

I think Ive gone mad.

Wutever. Bye.

CMD is back from hell!

Hello people.

I was so happy Ive finished pediatrics, I forgot I have not update this blog for such a long time.

The only reason I can update this blog is the fact that I'm currently really out of shape.

Ive been vomiting everything I eat since the past 2 days, feverish and very lethargic.

Slept the whole day yesterday because I cant even get up.And now at 3am, I cant even sleep.

Currently I am posted to Orthopaedics department. I wanted to go to OnG first, but to no avail. Maybe Allah wanted me to rest from all the mental tortures first.

The first day tagging in Ortho I returned to NICU and helped out with baby's blood. I miss then so much. Somehow the idea of dealing with sick cute little babies is way much better than dealing with broken adults. We get to hold them lovingly after poking them to death. And they would keep quite after we console them. They are like the cutest angels ever. I always wanted one of them but gonna have to go through O&G and see how it all blends.

Previously my mommy would always always push me to do paediatrics because I love kids. But knowing the kinda thing I have to deal with everyday during my days in Paeds, she gave up. A friend of mine was so into Paediatrics, Im not kidding she already bought a Paeds stethoscope for the posting, ended up throwing the idea out the window just after tagging. LOL. This was hilarious. I tried to talk her into Paeds again but it seems that the damage is inevitably irreversible. LOL.

Ortho is very very busy. It is way more busy than surgical. People get broken everyday. I get broken hearted every time I have to see polytrauma which ends up with one having to let go of one limb due to vessels and nerve injury. Its gruesome. Every morning we will have passover session to discuss new admissions and they come with gruesome pictures from broken nails to crushed hand to smelly diabetic foot. Horror ok.

OK.enough update for today. I thnk I need to puke suddenly. Shoot.

Bye

From Surgery to Paediatrics

Hey guys,
Hope everybody is doing fine.
I'm doing good after 1 month in pediatric. God knows for the past few weeks has been hell on earth. Esp when you have that transition from surgery to pediatric. Fuh, horror sungguh.

Every one of us who got into pediatrics ended up with fever,flu and some acute gastroenteritis. It's hell. I'm not even joking.

The working is fine, not as busy as medical, but we had to prepare mentally to present patient's cases during rounds with specialists. It was soooo hard and still hard to impress them. And we were told to cool down and take it easy by senior HO in the department, because they tend to have it hard to the newcomers. As expected, they turned out okay in the end. But as usual, with this field (medical base dept), they would always have verbal diarrheas of 'warning letters' and 'extension'. Everyday is a total scare. LOLz. I can laugh now, but God knows what's gonna happen to me in future..tsk. And very high extension rates some more, scary huh.

In pediatrics, we have to sit down and clerk new cases. It's like a never ending conversation. Its like from birth history to developmental history to immunization to bla bla. Sgt detail ok history die. Penat gile tanya soalan, mak ayah patient pon naik tension haha sampai nk tanya berapa sudu susu tepung utk wat susu, amik brp kali sehari.. LOL. I always felt they have this strange looks at me when I demonstrate how 'whooping' and 'barking' cough sounds like - just to make sure their kids not having them. Gosh..imagine when everybody is sleeping, and there's me standing and start 'barking' to the patient's parents.

Pediatric is very leceh - this is like the common impression of everyone. But the cases are very simple, very straight forward. Unlike medical, patients in pediatrics are normally of first encounters and dont have tht much background medical history to yap on. The same cases would repeat themselves every single day. It's either bronchopneumonia/febrile fit/bronchial asthma/AGE/croup, these are like bread and butter. It's leceh, but it's easier than medical - that's for sure. I salute pediatrics MO, they go oncall like housemen also, so when we dont get the branulas, they are just 5 secs away for help! And not much branula yg x jalan pun during oncalls..well I've only been oncall once..LOL.

Surely my end-point is not and never will be pediatrics, no matter how much I love kids. Loving kids and actually treating them is totally 2 different thing!

I really miss surgery..the hectic adrenaline rush, the long OT hours, the never ending laparotomies. I completed my surgical posting with approx 52 operations assisted including 4 abdo-peri resections, 1 roux-en- Yendless mastectomies and laparotomies and 1x rescue splenectomy.

roux-en-y gastrojejunotomy

I got to assist so many because I like being in the OT, most of them are done voluntarily when I have time after ward rounds/clinics and as well as taking my fellow housemen's third call oncalls - just so that I can be in OT. Thanks to my surgery medical officers and specialists,on their approval, I got to do 2 appendectomies myself! You know how hard it is to get them to trust you with 1 appendectomy here? That was soooo blooody awesome. Obviously under supervision la kan.

Weighing the both fields - my toll on surgery is like 75% than my toll on medical 25%. God knows which one is gonna be my end point. I hope God would help me decide and provide me with the best route in life.

Have to sleep now. Yes tommorow is Saturday (which is like today) but I'm going to work as usual.

Adious!

Remember

Remember me like pressed flower in your notebook. It may not be having its fragrance but it will remind you of my existence forever in your life.

Ramadhan Al-Mubarak!

Allahuakbar!

Ramadhan mubarak to everybody!

I will never give up on life, because Allah never gave up on me.

Young at heart

I just miss my childhood so bad now. Those days when I dont have to think about work, life and love. Those days when I just wake up to play and draw.

Some days we would sit on the ground and count the petals of daisies. Never did we appreciate that smell of early summer grass, where we run and hide in the meadows and eat wild blackberries unwashed.

Some days we would gather all the soft toys from bunnies to bears to action figures arranging them into families and friends and neighbours. Wishing that they come to life to join us play.

No emptiness or fear. No problems or pride. Just pure fun and happiness.

Its time grow up Alina. Welcome to reality.

(And it's also time to sleep. its flippin 3am in the morning!! LOL.)